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Gonna [Aug. 1st, 2013|08:53 pm]
eleanor rigby
When I've read people use the word "gonna" in papers, emails or applications it comes off as lazy and immature, but in other contexts read: FB, twitter, tumblr etc. I don't get that impression. Gonna is now defined as a contraction for 'going to.' Like a wildcard in the English structure game this contraction adds an 'a' in addition to the omission of letters 'o i n g t o.'

How our language changes in response to culture is facsinating, but I think our ability to document our symbols so clearly on a scale never before available, communicating, recording, self-tracking the morphology of spelling and pronuciation is changing history.
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Mining Public Data Garbage [Jun. 22nd, 2013|01:23 pm]
eleanor rigby
You could spend all day observing someone's eating habits or you could spend ten minutes going through their garbage and know what they ate all week.
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poly ticks [May. 29th, 2013|08:05 pm]
eleanor rigby
[mood |contemplativecontemplative]

I was born in Arizona, however I was able to travel and experience culture all over this country. I, and most obviously my taste in music, was influenced by a laid-back Californian style thriving in a cowboy run dry oven. Visiting my father's North Carolina family exposed me to different vibes and attitudes. Going to school in Illinois and experiencing Chicago throughout my life gave me an even more different perspective on what a populated area can be. Regardless of where you live, there are certainly observable trends, people are always going to be people. The prominence of ideologies shifts depending on where you are and I don't feel like I fit in too well. I find myself continuing to ask why people who would are so indoctrinated they will vote against their own self-interests. Depressive realism sets in that it is not their fault, there are people smarter than them creating the environments that they can't think/want/work their way out of...

Everyday I feel this underlying tension. Asking the right questions can be a challenge. I find myself nervous to speak up, to press. I'd like to learn patience, to hear them and learn their language. I may not be completely aware of my biases, but I realize and will make strides towards a better and more holistic understanding. While I see myself as someone who does not want to exploit, another will see me as failing to take advantage. It's a balancing act, diversity is incredibly important to maintain. Without a doubt my sympathies will change as I grow older and I'm looking forward to it.
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New Chapter - College Station [Oct. 11th, 2012|10:06 pm]
eleanor rigby
I think that I have found a position that is going to allow me to apply what I studied in my graduate program, build some connections with students, and take a big step up in administrative responsibilities. I absolutely can't wait to get started; the next two weeks are going to whiz by. As of this moment I am scattered in three states, but will soon consolidate into the place I will call 'home.'

As much as I would have loved to be back in Arizona, I think this is the better position for me. Perhaps this is speaking too soon, but I'm not sure I could have written a better job description. What exactly I want to be seems to be an ever changing idea. I am influenced by the opportunities, the people, the coincidental events. I am thankful to having a support system already started. I will really be growing new roots. Mastering a new city! I can't wait to get started.
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I love my mom [Jun. 28th, 2012|09:31 am]
eleanor rigby
I am not afraid to admit it. In fact, I often feel like I'm bragging when I get to talk about the relationship I now have with my mother. I call her when I need guidance or kind words, if something exciting happened or just because I'm missing her.

When I was living at home it was hard to appreciate all that she did for me. Now that I've been on my own for a while, I've come to understand how hard she worked and the sacrifices she has made so that my life would be as good as it is now. Also since moving away, she's gained confidence in my ability to take care of myself.

Often I am reminded of how lucky I am to have had both of my parents involved with my life. I am lucky to have the older sister I do and all that she was willing to do to contribute to my upbringing. My younger sister has also come into her own and is such a neat and fun person to be around. My favorite memories is of the game nights that we have, teasing, and laughing with each other.

There is such a spectrum of parenting styles and I'm intrigued by the relationships that I've been seeing. I've had parents telling me, we're planning this, or, I expect this will happen then. They completely talk for their children and have no idea that they are perpetuating their kid's dependence, instead of allowing them to make choices for themselves. Failure can be considered the best opportunity for learning, but it has become so easy for parents to prevent their children from failing.

Not only do I hear some of these kids looking for constant reassurance, but the parents are not developing any sense of confidence that their children might be able to take care of themselves. Why this happens, I don't know. Perhaps these parents are afraid of letting go. Worse, some may believe their children would fail and it would be a reflection of their parenting.

Anyone can just have a kid, but the ones who consider the skills and knowledge their children are going to need to be contributing members of society are the ones who are going to be better parents.
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